I've been having trouble for years with struggles and goals.
So I'll be doing /daily/weekly smaller things to help me eat that elephant as they say.
My First GoalGoals
1. Loose weight, and become healthier.
I want to be more vibrant and energized.I want my mental faculties back and more acute than before-my focus and memory.I want my vision to improve.I want my injuries to heal.I don't want body and joint pains anymore.No more test, medicine, nothing of the sort.I want my depression and mood to be balanced and improve with health and confidence.I want to be in tuned with my body and really inhabit it , use it and bless it.
How to do this.(if you have tips, please share)
Drink lots of blessed water.Carrying a water bottle with you everywhere.
Eat as much Natural, grown foods. Prepare healthy meals and snacks beforehand.
Drink and eat lots of yummy healthy smoothies and snacks.
Limit processed food, only one or two treats a week--I'll start there then push it back further as I get my cravings under control.
Lots of nature and sunlight-particularly exercise,sports, physical activity outdoors.
Keep a food journal--portable, and write
Here is a weightless goal that I set...but It's been very hard.So I'll just express myself here and keep track of smaller goals.The main goal is about 10-15 pounds off sometime in January, with visible changes in my body fitness, looks--especially mah waist. I want to have improved health and manage my stress better. D.A will be my expressing time, tracking system and hopefully a support system.
my starting weight is 160lbs yeah I've become big...
So I think a healthy weightless rate is like 1-2 pounds a week or every 2 weeks, depending on the body type and amount to lose.
I have a lot of internal wounds and trauma and I'm having real issues with them.I developed all kinds of secondary issues and problems due to it.It discourages me so bad at times I go into serious depression...I just feel so hopeless.
My dad went to the supermarket,and just saw an old 'teacher' of mine which helped to contribute to self esteem issues I have now.Basically they got into a cuss out...all I can say is the guy feels no remorse or sympathy and I was really hoping he had changed a little, so it would be easier to forgive him.All I can say I felt that same hurt and fear rise up in me as soon as I heard they saw him.I felt anger and sadness at that fact I was embarrassed of myself for letting these things affect my life so...even subconsciously....just lots of different feelings.
There is a lot of hard work that has to go into trying to steer my life around...sometimes I feel too far gone.But I have to try...keep trying and trying...or I really will be hopeless.
Overall some 'family', 'friends', 'teachers', and other.....
have tried to hurt me, some succeeded, some still are trying.
Some of the things they say/said: I am never going to make it with art, Never going to amount to nothing, I am stupid, I will never paint well or do art well, I have no purpose, I'm lazy, unattractive and fat,I can't make it on my own...etc.
That's some...but I will prove them wrong, in some areas I have already started to prove them wrong, but I will give my all to become my best version.These people have put serious tears in my soul and psyche that will need lots of work to patch up totally, But I have the power to improve my flaws and do what I want, they have no right to tell me If I had the right to have been born or if I should die.I'm going to practice getting my power back daily.Even if it's just a little every day. Moment by moment, getting better gradually.
Because this was too difficult and stressful, I'm changing the mini weigh-ins to simply aiming for inches off my waist or increased health and fitness goals. Weightloss for me takes longer and is too unpredictable. Sometimes it's water weight or muscle(I seem to put on muscle quickly too).At One point I hit 157,and soon was up to 162....Idk. This has been grueling, stressful and tiring beyond belief. If I happen to get weightloss by these times I'll let you know.However my new real weigh in will probably be January first or the end of March.I''m so glad I managed to scrap my first goal, but I will make this process much more realistic an enjoyable, I also want to one up and allow muscle, so this method works better.I'll let the mirror speak for me instead of a scale.
I also want to study a subject I'm weak in for an hour a day, but I may have to start with 30mins.
Study sub-goals 30mins-1hour daily
Significant confidence and improvement in at least one weak area of study by January 1st
Art goals are simply to draw, write, or paint for at least 20mins daily maybe I can do this in the early morning.
Art sub-goals: 20mins daily practice.
Art Goals: Significant confidence and improvement in art basics and vision, by January 1st.
I Really had such a difficult time trying to meet my first weigh in.And I'm still learning about weightloss and how my body works.
First weigh in Nov 30th my country's independence day.This is a good time to hit some personal independence goals...as a suffer with terrible phobia and anxiety disorder...lets just say it really destroys my life...in all aspects.
Goal weight: 158lbs or less.
And three inches off my waist.
Independence/confidence Goal: Getting myself outside more often and Doing at least one major thing that scares the hell outta me.
Second weigh in December 12th one of my favorite cousins is getting married to his girl of 5 years yippie! Then my Sisters birthday and party on the 13th woohoo. Must look do my best for those.
Goal weight: At least an inch off my waist or increased fitness
Independence/confidence Goal: engage with guest and let loose as much I can, take photos
Third weigh in December 26th Boxing day let's see if I can manage myself well through the Holidays and exhibit self control.
Goal weight:At least an inch off my waist or increased fitness
Independence /confidence Goal: Doing something that I'm scared of.
Fourth weigh in is January 1st New Years good time to be in the 140's and on my way a new better lifestyle yeah!!
Goal weight: At least an inch off my waist or increased fitness
Still hope to be in the 140's but no pressure.
Indenpence/Confidence Goal:Take another step to do something you believe you can't.
Then phase two begins, I'll probably be arguing with my parents about school or life path, or in school...so I know this part might be more difficult...I know this entirej ourney will be difficult anyway..but this part will take a lot.
Goal weight in 2016 is to get down to 125lbs.
Confidence Goals enter my work in contest and galleries or other things even if I am rejected or don't place.
Real weigh in in 2016
Probably March 31st
Well I will do my best and I encourage everyone to do the same with their goals and dreams.Don't let people or your feelings stop you from being your best.Keep trying even when the odds are against you or you mess up many times.
Hold unto Hope, it's the one thing that can get you through.